You see it as courage, I see it as admitting to failure. A friend wrote in his journal something that hit home with me....

the main thing that came out of this one is the discovery that I'd rather be "right" about being a failure than feel good. To whit, I put off doing things (and sometimes make poor choices) because I believe I'm a failure already. By ensuring that I am a failure, I'm reinforcing what I already believe.

That is something I'll have to bring up at my next therapy session I suppose.