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I was the firstborn child of Michael and Phyllis.

I was a child of five, feeling Anxiety for the first time. Not knowing why I had blind panic and the overwhelming thought to stab myself in the stomach with a steak knife that night.

I was a child of eleven, living in a foreign culture where blue eyes and blonde hair drew the stares and touches of strangers who did not speak my language.

I was a child of thirteen when I found my faith in the cycles of the moon. The faith that would shape my future.

I was a child of fifteen when my lying mind convinced me that I was in danger and had to hide behind closed doors. It's grip would mold my soul for years.

I was a child of twenty when I met someone who could calm the storms and soothe the waves within my mind. Not every time, but he would stand firm, an anchor, keeping me floating.

I was a child of twenty six when I stood on the shore of a lake, surrounded by family and friends, and pledged to love my anchor for as long as our hearts were together.

I was a child of thirty eight when my Mother passed from this world. And I cried like a newborn.

In July, I will become a child of forty three, and I have now become a sound.

I am the sound of a woman who must scream before her rights go backwards.

I am the sound of a Priestess, singing blessings to the moon.

I am the sound of a Shaman, calling the Elements.

I am the sound of a wife, a sister, an aunt, calling for justice for the women I love.

I am the sound of an American in a country that feels decidedly un-American.

I am the sound of a human in an inhumane world.

I am the sound of a divine spirit, having a very human experience.

A very wise friend told me recently, "We were born for these times."


Where am I from?

*I* am from many places.

I am from those people and experiences who have touched and shaped my life.

And I will continue to be a child as each new person and experience enters my world.

Date: 2017-01-30 01:03 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
This is a lovely timeline. Thank you for sharing that quote, "We were born for these times."

Date: 2017-01-30 06:32 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Thank you. He inspired my current state as having become a sound.

Date: 2017-01-30 01:04 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Beautiful! BTW...Where did you live in 1984 (in a foreign culture)?

Date: 2017-01-30 06:31 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Panama. Before America pulled out.

Date: 2017-02-01 04:31 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
This was beautiful.

Date: 2017-02-01 07:10 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Thank you very much.

Date: 2017-02-01 08:46 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
A very wise friend indeed.
I really like the format of this piece, very different but makes so much sense.

Date: 2017-02-02 04:38 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Thank you. I was hoping that the format/flow showed a progression of how each experience created where I was *FROM*.

Date: 2017-02-04 12:12 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
The repetitive use of "I was" and "I am" gives this a chant-like quality. It is a wonderful expression of how you got to be where you are today.

Date: 2017-02-05 01:42 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Thank you. I was really looking for something that tied each incident together.

Date: 2017-02-04 10:56 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I liked the format and the quote from the wise friend. A nice take!

Date: 2017-02-05 01:43 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Thank you. When my friend posted that, I commented on it and told him, "You know I'm stealing that, right?"

Date: 2017-02-04 11:42 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Certainly a piece that resonates with the the beauty of life and the stench of those that wish to control it.

Date: 2017-02-05 01:43 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Thank you very much.

Date: 2017-02-05 04:08 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Good introspection on where you've been and where you're going. I'm sorry you lost your mother so young. I lost mine slightly older, at 46, and it was incredibly hard.

Date: 2017-02-05 09:31 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I liked this series of important events, some good, some uncomfortable, some difficult and painful, but all part of what goes into making you.

Date: 2017-02-05 10:06 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
This was wonderfully deep and true. Thank you for this write. Hugs and peace~~~

Date: 2017-02-06 12:34 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I love the way you structured this entry. Brava!
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